Just When You Think You Might Fall Apart
There is this sign that comes into view each time I know I’m about to do something wrong. It’s my warning sign, my signal, to turn around, go back to where I came from. Don’t make another move. I see the sign, I stare at it for a minute, and then completely disregard it.
This is my life. This is who I am.
I go ahead and do what I told myself I wouldn’t. Sometimes fall into it without even meaning to. Looking up at the end, wondering how I got there. It all happens so quickly and there’s no satisfaction at the end. So why do it? The jig is up. We’re not getting any real love from this.
I am deisgned to create. To explore. To inspire. But I can’t reach my full potential, in fact I won’t reach it, if I don’t let Him take over. We all think we’ve got it under control. We think this world is ours and we can move in it without help, but that’s not true. We can’t do this alone, and we’re living that out everyday. Proving to ourselves how powerless we are. How much we need what we don’t want to have. But none of us are winning here. We’re just falling into this deeper, darker pit. Lives set up to imply a sense of perfection, happiness, but none of us have it.
Circling the deep I see the light. Ask me if I want this and I wonder what kind of answer I’ll give you.
Leave it to us, the form who believe we are the brightest, most intelligent, most beautiful, most intriguing species, and watch us all fall apart.
I bet they’re watching. Watching us all far apart.
but, He says,
“I Will Hold You Together”
Do you want to be held? Do you want to be Loved?
